either love or oath??

we often see trends of on and off relations... even my brother do that... what is the best being in relation and then you end-up break-up.... and the funny thing is.. the relation is only for less than 1 month.. i was like... are you guys serious..

I myself was not a good 'husband' either.. its just my luck to have a 'wife' which her face like a wall and her heart like a barbarian.. =)..

let me tell my experience... my longest relation is only can be hold only for 2 years... and we broke up because we don't have the sparks anymore.. when i try to put sparks... my ex know and get the hints but she end-up being slightly BLURR.. and i was like... did she notice what i want... pfftt =.="..

on every of my relation i'm in different 'mode'

i used to be:

mat bunga

mat jiwang

mat blues

mat mampuih p kat hg

currently

mat hati kering tanpa perasaan yg awek dy 2 dah meraung mcm org hilang laki hilang harta... HAHA...

sbb mcm suka j jd mcm 2... hahaha

and i know that she don't like it... but i have my reasons... so that she will never:

thinking something that is delirious

too obsessed with her own thought

being to shallow

crying with purple tears... huhuhu...

ataupun aq saje nk dy marah aq...(nakalkan hihi)

well leave that aside... i'm not going to tell you guys my lovestory... hahah.. but what i wanna stress here is that people nowadays were in relations... yess we obviously know that... but is it base on oath(sumpahjanjisehidupsematiterjunbangunankapallahbagaisayanakkahwindenganawaknakadewanakdenganawakdansebagainya) or are they or WE really love that person dearly...

i often asked myself did i love her based on oath or love.. hmmm... if about oath.... i think i've made one... but that is not why i'm 'engaged' to her... haha.... hmmm.... it's me whom know the answer... (hilang garang r beb)

so how about you guys???

=.="

this entry should first so before i forget and the thought i wanted to shared flew away let me put this puzzle back..

to know and 'digest something or even anything we need knowledge about some particular things... for example if you wanna bath you must know how to open the tap.. if you don't know how to do so... u'll not be able to take your bath..

in this case.. read this first :

org yg kite suke x tentu akan syg kite mcmane kite syg die, tp org yg syg kite selalu ade untuk kite walaupon kite lg focus kat org yg kite suke..;p so, tentukan mane satu org yg syg kite and mane satu yg kite terkejar2...

believe me,u can't have both... AND BELIEVE ME!!! HILANG ORG YG SYG KITE JAUH LAGI SAKIT DR HILANG ORG YANG KITE SUKE!!!

what did you guys understand about this???...

fro me.. what i know from the inner sight is... to love someone, get to know the person that likes and loves you.. both are different and should have a contradictions on it LIKES and LOVES..

LIKES

for me 'likes' is an adjective word for love in which means love is something that you can feel.. unlike likes... you can say you like FRANK LAMPARD for instance.. it doesn't mean that you loved him as if in the context where you need a commitment and care... and please be rationally fits when it comes how to differentiates love as it should be and it must be... you get what i mean??... well if you don't you can read it again.. and likes is not a 'root word' of love... it's a 'root word' for a phase of liking something..

LOVES

loves.. hmm... well actually love is a very wide and broad word with different kind of interpretations of the word... but most mentality in the world would say that love is about marriage, sex, commitments, money and all that.. but did you realized that from all that it is actually not what is love would meant to be... it most probably can be classify as new phase and beginning in life... as for me.. love is something sacred and could not be understand in just 1 perspective.. there's a way to determine love as your own... but it does take a lot of time...

so as a conclusion... hence, maybe some of you guys son't really see where is this post actually drives you in.. what i mean is... to love and like somebody you need to know the person that loves and likes you... look on their signals... like their gestures, treatments, talks, and eye-contacts.. there are hint went somebody likes or loves you.... try on...

p/s:

the person that loves you doesn't mean he likes you

the person that likes you doesn't mean he loves you

the person that you like doesn't mean you love him

the person that you love doesn't mean you like him

try to think... its a bit tricky though... because these stuffs did affect our lives wherever and whenever..

let try this out..

*deep sigh*

i've been a jerk lately.. like everyone around me knows about it.. but no i don't mean it but seriously i mean it.. haha..

well.. to get over it i have a major break-down recently were i was crushed into pieces like an ice-cube.. pfftt.. and that put shu, farris, izwan, and few people that i don't know cz i do 'laughing'-out-loud.. then i moved to .. ok lets not tell the whole story will ya??.. thank you guys for being my hugging-bear-to-cry.

what i want to say here is being a jerk is cool.. i mean really cool.. but in most time being a jerk won't work-out.. so if you want to be a jerk and still would want it to work.. try to think something bizarre that a normal and typical jerk don't do.. and that is an advice..

and rite now i am putting back my brunt using self-adhesive that this time will make me a cold-hearted and untouchable with peoples action..

what the heck.. ok.. i get you.. so if you want to back-off for something that you say you can't tell me perhaps maybe because of your taboo and stuff well be my guest.. i don't mind anymore.. although im still in recovery mode but what the heck.. i know i can faced it and stand proudly on my own achievement and ability and not by your pitifulness on me.. back on the past yes you might pity me mercifully but now i assure you that now the dog-gone-days are over.. this time around you are the one who will craving for me.. my will is my power..

what i will do is what you will felt impaired with:

- jaws dropping down

- eyes-popping-out

- head turning

- body shaking

with full of JEALOUSY!!

i marked my word this time.. and this post is most likely related to you.. the person that...... i don't want to spoil the surprise here.. if i did tell you guys about it... it will blow all the things that i have been keeping out... and seriously...

THIS ISN'T GAY!.. (fuck la sapa yg suka dok cop aq ni GAY!!)

try to put me down this time you will get it hard.. i've been living in a world of pain and the pain that lure me is something which is very tough and indestructible (cewahh~~).. hmmm...

dah letih la dgn benda ni sume..

i keep my word... you'll looked up on me... high above the sky.. although i need to struggle to be 'there' but seriously it's you whom put me in this kinda avenging state..

haha... i'm a person that smiles and jokes around a lot.. but if messed around just slightly mistakes of tinee-tiny words.. you will get burn by my words...

i hope everyone read this i hope YOU read this...

is it my turn??

the bass ocean is turbulent,

idea on stuff that is settle is still on the go,

but i have been doing the best i cloud,

for you i would,

though u are going away,

you came but you sway,

and when you came i feel happy,

but my happiness was just in my own imaginary,

are you having a preclusion,

if yes, maybe the nature of the illusion,

or maybe it's not an illusion,

hullaballoo~~~

the weeks of being here in Shah Alam is so fascinating because i have many things to do... hahah 

free title, musical, and islamic educations short stories =.=" (since when)

the exercise and routine for my musical was awesome although not as cute or butt-heating like others.. hahah but what the heck... like it though...

somethings are not going well..

somethings are not going well still not going well..

somethings that i haven't done in a LONG time i've did it again..

somethings that i never think i would done i've done it..

somethings that i try to think of  is it gotta have something to do with me or not is unanswered..

i do felt fade-up with it.. so numb when i think of it... thanks to the lights i'm still standing although i'm being plastic.. hahaha...

i've done many stupid things this past 3 weeks... and i done it back somethings that i've been living for a long time.. i don't know what to say.. i might want to say something but people will be oblivious.. i will not post it until this one day.. when the time has come i will do it... right now it is not appropriate.. hmmmm...

the wheel is still spinning.. whether it will kantoi... or not...

something is fragile....

in my dreams i always see you soar above the sky,

i keep the part of you with me,

there you'll be..

here we are,

on my roof,

dark and it burn.

cold case love,

and i let you reach me one more time..

i must put this up or else..

I've been in a misery despite all of the fun that i have,... there is something that i kept with this joyful face and 'puaka'ing attitude...

I'm so trashed.... its overloaded and still loading..

how can we moved on to a better life when there is a news that we got that can put us to death..

how can we moved on to a better life if something precious is lost..

how can we moved on to a better life so that we can continue what are we good at is now gone..

how can we moved on to a better life whose valuable is pulled out..

and to recover it is not like giving a candy to a little child... it took a years to cur it like a cancer...

huhh.. (deep sigh)

im back!!...

omg!!.. it have been a while i hadn't update my blog... Gosh!!...

there is something happen to me... i've been invited to an event like no other.. =.="... and why i didn't update my blog is because of:

• lettey....
• single-handed typing...
• no time for own leisure (yeye j)...
• hatred...
• mengantuk!~~~...

hooo..... but i don't think that it's the main problem....xkuase, mak penat nokss busy(zackie's word)... but this is the real story...

firstly,

I WAS INVITED TO AN ACCIDENT.... and it was so whore-riffic!!

time : 12.30p.m

date : 15/11/2010

venue : sungai bogak, bagan serai, perak.. (kalo bodoh sgt google)

partner : HIS MOM!!

we were riding a motorcycle and we were actually on our way back to penang from my sister house at taiping... due to some occasion (naek court bayar saman... *bajet tanak bg tawu*)...

me : mak.. nak balik jalan mna ni??

mom : umm... mak teghingin nak makan kt bagan serai... mak makan dgn ba hari tue sedap.. ikut jalan lamalah

lalalalala~~~ of we go to the restaurant my mom would want to go....

arriving at that destination...

me : kedai tutup la mak.... gu mana nie??

mom : xpa la.. kita balik makan megi j la kt ghumah...

me : yayy!!!... megi!!.... ^_^

mom : adeq masak..

me : yayy!!... =.="

lalalalala~~~ of we go taking our journey back to penang..

at the tragic scene...

BAMMM!!!....

~~ My mom ~~

~~ My son ~~

and we got a souvenir for the event..

this is my 'gift'

this is mom's 'gift'

and i was like *pfftt*...

ok.... frankly i like this because it gave me a new experience in getting my hand plated with metal.. but there is also something that i don't like when i recap or having flashback...

but the best part is..... muahahahaha..... KAKAK2 PRACTICAL KAT HOSPITAL SUME 'MESRA' DENGAN AQ... HOHOHO..... suke2 (=^_^=)..

*sory syg... i can't help it...

as i was aware that the meranti's registration is on the 22/11/2010.... i need to be mentally stable and not to freak out because i cant really be there on time... and i decided to go back to shah alam on the 25/11/2010.. and by the help of my allies i manage to pull a 'scam' on someone.. and i missed my bloods dearly.. especially along.. but in the end i got a BARBARIAN SLAP and a THAI KICK for pulling the 'joke'.. ok.... the kick is only exaggeration.. she's not that high to do so... i still have my 'armor' to protect me... activate... TANGAN BESI!!!..

hahahah..... that was the first part of being slapped =.="

xsedor ke diri dengan handicapnye.... sempat lagi menggila.... macam org normal... oii jantan... ko tu handicap... buat la cara handicap.... haddoii yaiyy!!...

intec's library with dini's shawl yg agak busok!!..

sempat menggatal dalam hujan...

gatal kan pelok2 aq... hahaha...

*soryy... namaw cubit nahh... O:-)

yang penting.... sempat uolls pegi menjalang kat tgk Natrah kat is istana budaya... photoshoot jgn ckp la...... adew j yg nk amek gambaq dgn aq.... letteyy...

sesi meng'gewdix' with farah wazer and sue

arriving at Istana Budaya and org yg berjaya dress-up

(miss sally tanak kalah taw.. hehe~~)

mike freaks me out

maya karin!!!... aaaaaa!!!!...

remy ishak...... ummm.... aaa... mmmm maybe...

umie aida uollss... old time diva..

 adew jugak candid deme 2 org ni haa.... mumu btol... hahah

in the end aq dgn zackie gak mcm paris hilton and kim kardashian.. hohoho

2 days after that... boleh plak g menggedik menari2 tarian 1 malaysia dekat dataran merdeka.. dengan handicapnye boleh menari 9 tarian... 9 uollss.... hahahahaha....

arriving BEFORE 6 AM!!... dedicate taw.. hahaha

sebelom event bermula..

antara budak tesl yg wujud la... mls nk list sume... hohoho...

me and syidah

jalangnity of the jalangness

ble athir dah menggedikk...

athir dan mak ayam berbaju purple.... dy yg jd instructor... hohoh

i took this picture.... artistic sgt uollss

me and one of the hotstuff.. irfa

hahahaha.... amenn... hohoho....

sbnrnya aq ni mcm nk tanak j hahaha..... xuplod nnt kne hancor... hooo

masculine guy derr..

in the end of the dance is....

tapak yg tertinggal hahaha...

zackie yg amat bedikasi hingga kasut pown tercabot... hahaha

esoknye pulakk class photo..... hape lg aq.... mngambil kesempatan dgn baeknya.... muka yg ko nk tgk mcm disebelah kiri ni ye... haha

PI020(2D)

kinky shooter... hohoho

zackie and his style uollss... takott.... hahaha

overall is...

all the invitations are really cramping me out... hohoho.....