put up something you don't want to be. actually.

if you smile through your pain and sorrowsmile and maybe tomorrowyou'll see the sun come shining through
CharlieChaplin-smile

yes.. please.. oh no.. gosh!
multiple exclamation words i'm saying. what a day and it is has not even near the end of the day. i'm busting myself off to make my day not miserable. you know how it felt when your day starts with a rain clouds and not even a ray of sunshine shining the earth well that is the metaphor for the situation now. my day start bad and i keep on smiling and recuperate so that everything is alright and well right now the sun is shining bright and hot it burnt my tanned skin! LOL! its a joke i'm actually dark skin guy.. 
the case study for today is as you can see the title.
i have been dealing with this matter or should i say matterS regarding on that. being a bimbo or acting like one ain't going to make you popular or getting more friends but people will took you for granted and use you. wait! no ummm... i'm not saying this because i'm a bimbo and can even a guy be called a bimbo? the point is stop making your self like a puppet or a muppet or what ever it is.
numerous question bugs me like
1. why people easily took advantage of me? is it karma?2. am i so blurr so that people can do that to me?3. i'm loud and decisive but why am i become so stupid?4. i know that i'm being used but why i'm still letting myself into it?
ever encounter this problem? yeses and nos. well most of it must be a yes. taking advantage in no matter what reason AND occasion is a bad thing. don't do that to people and to myself stop judging any people PLEASE! frankly when someone says or act something in front of you don't straight away label them as this and that.
YES!
labeling someone is A CRIME for me. this labeling thingy used to be happening to me as i labelled someone or group of people and i end up being buddies and start to regret what i say and labelled them behind their backs. to ask forgiveness by saying back to them as what you said before is something that is really hard because you don't really know what will them respond.
for a person like me whom ACTUALLY really cares about what people that i'm ok with might think and act is very important to what will happen.
seriously guys!.
being matured is not actually how you react and pretending to say and be. but its how you think. thought can be fatal and can be cure. again i stressed. not by saying words and acting will make you mature but you ability to think rationally is the general weapon of maturity!.
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create it yourself. you might win the game.

think thought and rethink.

words could not be describe by looking but doing it.. ok, that is a blab. i don't know how to work it anymore here.

its been awhile since i'm here and right now many thing had happen and endured. let me tell you life is like superlatively miserable and frustrating in fact right now i'm in a cold war with many people. first thing i learn is being in a cold war with people is rather good nor bad because it made me feel so unreliable and deteriorated.

unbelievable!

yeah yeah yeah, people will have their up and down well shut that up i know that. i'm telling you people my condition right now. see, i hope that in the upcoming event nothing is wrong. i mean with slight error. dealing with life is a a working class people is not easy people. balancing work, life, study, friends, family and :)) is hard i'm 40% sure that i am learning and organize myself with it FULLSTOP.

i want to make my writing more interesting like before and i don't think that you people is reading it with pleasure. CUT TO THE CHASE!

let me share with you what i learn currently.

1. do not fall with false alarm

2. mind your word!

3. organize yourself PLEASE!

4. stop being annoying and irritating

5 STOP MAKING ASSUMPTION 

that is it currently. all this thing i am well informed that ALL of you people knows and of course encountered it but as a gentle reminder to you people and of course myself, at that matter you are in your own pimple ready to explode. what i mean is you are 1% close to make people punch your face. guys, it ain't easy to manipulate things and what not like saying 

"i'm fine, you should not worry about me. i'm perfectly fine"

( you actually is depressed and by saying that is not going to solve it )

"i'm over it i'm moving on *smile*"

( truth is you still think and struggling not to do anything related)

come on! your trick is in the book. its lame why don't you say

"i'm thinking of cyanide or maybe bleach which one will work effectively"

(this is a serious case and people knows that you are in a deep shit)

"hey is it dawn yet? i haven't finish thinking"

( i done know how to create a sense by this. let it be there i look smart by it)

that is effective and reliable come on! be creative. hmmmmm.. now. if you are dealing with no matter what problem or stuff try to create a rule from it develop a strategy how to play it. come with various questions that might occur. that is how you i mean us deal with this. 

on top of all STOP SAYING

"i know this will happen and i'm ready to stop"

(duhh! you haven't know what is actually it then simply you are stopping yourself? pathetic!"

"i could not bear it. so much pain!!!! *sobb*"

(urggghhh!!! i feel like want to slit your throat!!)

believe that we are more than what we actually know AND STOP thinking negatively with annoying speech afterward. if you say something you want to do than DO IT! don't do it and give up the next day.

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