put up something you don't want to be. actually.

if you smile through your pain and sorrowsmile and maybe tomorrowyou'll see the sun come shining through
CharlieChaplin-smile

yes.. please.. oh no.. gosh!
multiple exclamation words i'm saying. what a day and it is has not even near the end of the day. i'm busting myself off to make my day not miserable. you know how it felt when your day starts with a rain clouds and not even a ray of sunshine shining the earth well that is the metaphor for the situation now. my day start bad and i keep on smiling and recuperate so that everything is alright and well right now the sun is shining bright and hot it burnt my tanned skin! LOL! its a joke i'm actually dark skin guy.. 
the case study for today is as you can see the title.
i have been dealing with this matter or should i say matterS regarding on that. being a bimbo or acting like one ain't going to make you popular or getting more friends but people will took you for granted and use you. wait! no ummm... i'm not saying this because i'm a bimbo and can even a guy be called a bimbo? the point is stop making your self like a puppet or a muppet or what ever it is.
numerous question bugs me like
1. why people easily took advantage of me? is it karma?2. am i so blurr so that people can do that to me?3. i'm loud and decisive but why am i become so stupid?4. i know that i'm being used but why i'm still letting myself into it?
ever encounter this problem? yeses and nos. well most of it must be a yes. taking advantage in no matter what reason AND occasion is a bad thing. don't do that to people and to myself stop judging any people PLEASE! frankly when someone says or act something in front of you don't straight away label them as this and that.
YES!
labeling someone is A CRIME for me. this labeling thingy used to be happening to me as i labelled someone or group of people and i end up being buddies and start to regret what i say and labelled them behind their backs. to ask forgiveness by saying back to them as what you said before is something that is really hard because you don't really know what will them respond.
for a person like me whom ACTUALLY really cares about what people that i'm ok with might think and act is very important to what will happen.
seriously guys!.
being matured is not actually how you react and pretending to say and be. but its how you think. thought can be fatal and can be cure. again i stressed. not by saying words and acting will make you mature but you ability to think rationally is the general weapon of maturity!.
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