i'm sexy and i know it..

Kehadapan para pembaca ,

hmm... aku baru lepas baca blog yang aku follow dan aku rasa sangat terkuzat dan juga terkesima sebab banyak blog yang aku baca ayat-ayatnya semua BOMBASTIC dan hebat belaka..  apa sajalah..

well do tell you guys what i read tonite i felt it... its like all the words from my following list is for me, it's from many ways.. for me to think, reminisce jap2 aku rasa macam aku dah benci dengan perkataan 'reminisce' tu.. aku nak jalan je, redah je apa yang jadi yang orang hidang depan aku... tapi takde la aku nak telan semua benda yang dihidang... akan la aku tapis dan kelas-kelas kan 'khasiat' yang diorang bagi tu... yes!!.. ayat aku dah mula complicated.. korang pepaham ea..

so??.. aku nak cerita ape yee.. macam macam aku nak cerita.. kenapa aku hilang.. kenapa aku dah tak contact dengan orang yang dulu aku suka hang-out, sesembang.. AKU MALAS.. aku dah ula untuk jadi selfish.. because why... perlu ke kita terhegeh-hegeh dengan orang yang bukan saja jarang contact malah 2 mesej sebulan pon susah nak dapan.. dengan harapan dapat alasan yang munasabah walhal jawapan dia hampeh amat..

kawan lama 34

aku takut kau busy or kerja.. aku tanak kacau kau..

jawap aku

baik kau delete nombor aku..

kawan lama 66

alaahh.. aku sukan tanak call or text kau.. takde masa laa..

jawap aku

kau tak payah nak tipu sangat laa... PM pon boleh online facebook la bagai.. beliau lagi sebuk..

yea tuan-tuan dan puan-puan.. inilah jawapan yang bukan saja aku akan dapat.. malah korang pon akan dapat benda yang samaa.. euuwhh!!... nak terajang je muka orang yang bagi alasan yang macam tu... nasib baik jauh..

ada benda aku nak cakap pasal diri aku sebenarnya... aku rasa dah samapa masa untuk aku bagi tahu dan luahkan benda ni...

BERAT AKU NAIK 2 KILO!!!...

hahaha!!... okay.. maybe tak lawak.. at  least aku dah cuba sedaya upaya nak bagi korang tak boring dan tertidur macam dalam kuliah..

okay... kali ni serius.. aku nak bagi tahu benda yang aku akan bagi tahu... i't about me...

orang yang rapat dengan aku macam BFF aku ke... kawan-kawan lama aku ke dorang akan cakap yang dorang kenal sangat dengan aku..

• aku perahsia..
• aku gila meng'ushar'
• aku akan berdiam diri bila tiba masa aku berdiam
• aku senang faham kalau kau nak cakap apa-apa dekat aku
• aku memang nampak menggedik tapi tu bukan aku
• aku banyak mencarut tai benda tu bukanlah zikir bagi aku
• aku akan hipokrit kalau aku tak suka kau dan kau akan nampak tanda aku tak suka kau
• aku sanggup tolong kawankawan sedaya mampu
• aku boleh cuba berkorban untuk DIA sebab aku bukan lagi yang dulu
• aku memang rasa AKU DAH BERUBAH sebab aku dah tak layan benda yang aku layan
• aku nampak menyusahkan sebab aku terdesak
• aku boleh percaya apa yang korang cakap tapi once korang tipu aku, aku akan COP korang

banyak pulakk.. haha.. biar laa... nak baca, baca laa.. hak korang.. yang aku nak cakap INNER SIDE AKU DAH BERUBAH!!!.. cakap la ape yang kornag nak cakap.. kisah pulak aku.. aku dah letih dengan benda yang aku buat dulu.. adalah beneficial dan not beneficial.. amenda laa aku ni.. 

should or shouldn't it be untold

once i read these brilliant quotations..

"our live is derived from experiences"

(from my pencil case made in Korea by Omnibus)

"facts may be facts. if somebody ants to argue with you, there are many sources

of information to cite. emotional matters are something else. what you say is based

on nothing but your feelings and therefore, cannot and should not

be challenged. those who will try only make themselves look ridiculous"

(The Sun, 8th September 2011)

i have been keeping these masterpiece for quite a long time.. i might not be as creative as a good writer for flowery words.. but what i wrote is from my experience and also from my own indigenous feeling.. must not regret is the what we need to learn from life.. the decision we made is what we already think and ready for the consequences but neither both of the decisions and thoughts are reliable because the future is uncertainty yet full of ambiguity..

bare in mind that what ever that people call you and tag you as only you know yourself and how you function.. what i experience from before and now on is that what we chose are not actually in the way.. following HIS decision is what MUST BE OBLIGED.. the nature of new thing and surroundings towards new kind of setting can actually teach you and strengthen yourself is you think and reminisce it thoroughly.. one way to look into you is to feel the nature.. after SUBUH look throughout the window and feel the breeze and listen to surrounding..

look for tranquil sound and start to

set your mind as thick like the Great Wall of China..

aim high like a skyscraper..

dream beyond imagination like the bird..

learn to adapt like the life of a caterpillar and swing beautifully like a butterfly..

live out your life to the fullest..

think you are a big loser, yes you are because you have many things more to learn and observe

think you might lose in a war, you might lose but don't give up your dignity easily

think that you are at the bottom of the wheel, then just be patience because that is part of life

think that you are lonely and empty, you have friends not to do then cry out loud

think that you feel bored with life, all you need is to sing your life

the moment you realized the good things in live rather than being so obscured is a not a momentarily feeling but you can obtain it anytime with open-mind.. 

"DON'T LET IT SHATTERED LIKE A PIECE OF GLASS WHEN SMASHED ONTO THE GROUND.. BE A DURABLE ONE.."

welcome back Awal Khamis

assalamualaikum... hello minnions!!!...

dah serabut jugak blog aku yang dah bersawang ni.... welll the reason that i didn't update my blog is that i'm actually was not preoccupied with work of stuff.. i have lots of thing to pour between ideas feeling and things that i consider really important to be share with you guyys... first and for most.... i'm starting the new life in my own hometown for  not going to the place that i really want to go.. the karma i have is that, i had saw the person who used to be that hard in socializing life now a heavy socializer.. i don't mind he or she to be so because they choose that kind of living and mingling.... WHAT EVER!!!

and the reason that i like it, loved it actually is because i think that i am recovered and also really blessed in the changing that i'm feeling... i'm on the pursuit of happiness in my study..  to be frank i actually missed the life in TeSL... because the life there is so underwhelmed in thoughts and brilliant new ideas.... here i don't have that kind of experience anymore not that i be little this kind of people but i can't find anything make in sense in what they are doing and they are thinking not like the way i used to think.. the way in having real university lives...

i don't want myself to be like these kind of people being drool down into their lair of ways in thinking and stuff... sorry friends.. i don't mean to insult or putting you guys at rage... but the reason i wrote this is because i want myself to learn about the way people are living in the way they are.. i know i have had made this explanation more complicated that it supposed to be...

from the bottom of my hart peeps.. i'm sorry... not to insult... but as a reminder for myself..

i missed the thing i used to have...

i missed those people..

i missed HER...

i missed them..

i missed ijoy..

i missed azwa..

i missed arif..

i missed zakwan..

i missed athir..

i missed 2D..