what am i gonna do!

well i don't know whether there is still actual people reading my blog. the problem maybe because of me myself. i RARELY make a new entry. so its quite left out to rot! hahaha.

Poland vs Greece yesterday was fun but not that interesting. ok cut to the chase. i actually want to share and also advice you people and also myself. right now i'm going through a rough period in which i was being soooo and veryyy indecisive. it is not good for a person like me to be indecisive because t was not cool at all. adoii. its not because i cannot made up my mind on something but there are boundaries and also thing that i s't want to risk myself like what i did previously.

at this point i'm in the process of liking 2 person at a time. they both were fun and also sweet to me. always there when i feel like shit. the problem right now that A is in Shah Alam and B is in KL. what the hell am gonna do!. for me distance is not a problem since i now live in KL with my sister but the real catch is that A if afraid being cheated and want me -if we were in relationship- to be near, to care and also to feel me. B in other hand is already in a relationship. i like B because of the maturity and openness shown by B. but then again B is in relationship!

A likes me but afraid of commitment. B is in relation but i don't know whether B likes me or not. but i really like B although we just met. i knew and my hunch says that B is different from what i've encounter.


i cannot make out my mind. i feel like crying because of my own stupidity and indecisiveness. right now accompany my ears and my hearing aid is korean love songs. sobbss..

belated sucks birthday :p

well...........

the year 2012 also i get the same 'celebration' like previous year. dull and nothing special happens.

i receive a box of holland cake tart form her. i cherish that a lot. as usual, no celebration took place. but the best thing is i got the chance to run away from my peers and also lecturers. I WAS HUNT LIKE AL-QAEDA! what the heck. treating like i'm sort of a terrorist. i have to take cover everywhere even under the stairs but then was spotted by them..

on the same date the second time of my life i knew that i shared birthday with a celebrity chef.. it's my chef teaching here in my place. he used to be in spice route and he is....

he got the cream on her face prank by his own students.. hahaha lucky i dodged them from getting creamed..

perhaps it would be a short entry to tell me dull celebration. but i was glad because there weren't any cash overflow happens.. :)

entrance of an entry

24 minutes

for this time i only have a few minutes to complete on what is bugging my mind. firstly i want to say that i am now am at a very messy stake. i don't know what am i lacking of since a fortnight ago. you know when there comes a time in which we felt that we are doing the same thing over and over again  -more like routine- until it saddens us when we realize that the on-going thingy had become a very lethargic life of yours. well that thing never happens to me.

i have felt many ways of life. from a trash person to almost-perfect-person (but it only last for a week). so, the tragic personage happens or can i say "kecelaruan identiti". do not get me wrong but when you felt that way -not the usual boring routine and things you keep on doing- you will know what am i trying to say.

18 minutes

i keep on putting myself at busy-no-time-for-fun mode but i'm afraid that the mode is so harmful for my brain in a way it might cause me head-cracks.

and after so long know that i remember that i have a blog for me to put this up so that i can share with you my dear readers as a thought that one or two of you might be experiencing the same problem as i am right now.

oh yeah.. i also wanted t brought this things up, why is that i am feeling i'm going to class not listening to lectures so that i know what to write in my final rather than feeling that i'm attending a regular talk by an academics. it came across me when i'm in TITAS class earlier today (TITAS-islamic civilization and Asia civilization). but i did not said that the lecturer whom triggered me to think that way, NO but it is me that think of that matter happens.. i try to think and divulge myself into a commonsense in which typical people would think -going to class to listen and think to create words in answering the final exam- what is the main purpose of them going to class..

12 minutes

so in the end i just realize that i have a blog (lol! takde kena mengena pon) and i end this at almost 12 minutes remaining time..