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catchy isn't it. i mean the title

well here's a story i want to share and from now on i'll be posting more for the joy of my readers. i just got back from abroad and this time the experience was the most horrible from all trip that i had ever been. although it was the same place but this time the people put me in lot of patience. 

this is how

it was a great day after a long hard work, me and my sister when for a little shopping spree to pamper ourselves. blablabla to cut the story short is while we were waiting for a cab and literally we were struggling to find one because we need to compete with other passenger until the time were we got a cab and almost asked the driver came a guy out of nowhere step in the cab and shut the door strongly! how rude! i don't mind if i was the one whom got the cab but it was my sister and she's a lady! gosh! its either 2 possibilities; the guy is totally rude OR he's SUPERGAY! but then again gay people also have respects to ladies i mean c'mon! if it was in Malaysia i swear to god i would knock your groin hard!. let alone the story.

and this time is when i when to the airport to fly back home. the beg-dropping-lady is i would say 2 or 3 months pregnant and she was so cranky and perhaps crooked. its hard to tell this story but the conclusion is what i said in my mind is 

" Awal you need to stay calm and relax. you're going to be a father sooner or later"

(while rubbing my chest)

THE END

now this is the matter that i want to share with you people of what i think. i've been sitting alone listening to music as always.

watching people strolling around, sitting and doing their stuff i ponder, what is these people doing throughout their life just to finish off the day. some i can see from their physical is doing business in meeting people and also just look at the laptop screen with only god knew what is he/she is doing.

but as of for me now i'am at the state of thinking what i MUST do. my love live if waaayyyy of the grid. why? well i've been liking, liked and likes. but the thing is the relation is not in order either the person is a relation or in scandalous life. as of for that is was tagged as a player more like a Casanova. no i am not. i bet to differ because these hypothesis given by my friend isn't correct at all..

yes i am a sweet and soft talker. but it doesn't mean i use that specialty to 'trap' those people. i'm not that mean. but the real thing is i am liking a person but this person is in a relation. gosh it hurts when i have to see  status updates saying i miss you and how i love you. it hurts man! and what are we now? for me i'm a guy that waits for dreams to come true so that the person will be mine while hurting myself to the fullest. that person? hmmm.. treatment given is so sweet and made me fall in love even deeper. i think this is my biggest crush ever. i am sure of it. but then again i was told to not put hope on what i want because its only will hurt myself. i said that i'm okay but obviously lying to said those okay thing suffice to make me heart throbbed.

i had respond to the friend request but i ought to feel that this post will be read. but if it will be read then i'll be ready for what question that will be asked.

Praying to God i will not say something stupid. 

what am i gonna do!

well i don't know whether there is still actual people reading my blog. the problem maybe because of me myself. i RARELY make a new entry. so its quite left out to rot! hahaha.

Poland vs Greece yesterday was fun but not that interesting. ok cut to the chase. i actually want to share and also advice you people and also myself. right now i'm going through a rough period in which i was being soooo and veryyy indecisive. it is not good for a person like me to be indecisive because t was not cool at all. adoii. its not because i cannot made up my mind on something but there are boundaries and also thing that i s't want to risk myself like what i did previously.

at this point i'm in the process of liking 2 person at a time. they both were fun and also sweet to me. always there when i feel like shit. the problem right now that A is in Shah Alam and B is in KL. what the hell am gonna do!. for me distance is not a problem since i now live in KL with my sister but the real catch is that A if afraid being cheated and want me -if we were in relationship- to be near, to care and also to feel me. B in other hand is already in a relationship. i like B because of the maturity and openness shown by B. but then again B is in relationship!

A likes me but afraid of commitment. B is in relation but i don't know whether B likes me or not. but i really like B although we just met. i knew and my hunch says that B is different from what i've encounter.


i cannot make out my mind. i feel like crying because of my own stupidity and indecisiveness. right now accompany my ears and my hearing aid is korean love songs. sobbss..

belated sucks birthday :p

well...........

the year 2012 also i get the same 'celebration' like previous year. dull and nothing special happens.

i receive a box of holland cake tart form her. i cherish that a lot. as usual, no celebration took place. but the best thing is i got the chance to run away from my peers and also lecturers. I WAS HUNT LIKE AL-QAEDA! what the heck. treating like i'm sort of a terrorist. i have to take cover everywhere even under the stairs but then was spotted by them..

on the same date the second time of my life i knew that i shared birthday with a celebrity chef.. it's my chef teaching here in my place. he used to be in spice route and he is....

he got the cream on her face prank by his own students.. hahaha lucky i dodged them from getting creamed..

perhaps it would be a short entry to tell me dull celebration. but i was glad because there weren't any cash overflow happens.. :)