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catchy isn't it. i mean the title

well here's a story i want to share and from now on i'll be posting more for the joy of my readers. i just got back from abroad and this time the experience was the most horrible from all trip that i had ever been. although it was the same place but this time the people put me in lot of patience. 

this is how

it was a great day after a long hard work, me and my sister when for a little shopping spree to pamper ourselves. blablabla to cut the story short is while we were waiting for a cab and literally we were struggling to find one because we need to compete with other passenger until the time were we got a cab and almost asked the driver came a guy out of nowhere step in the cab and shut the door strongly! how rude! i don't mind if i was the one whom got the cab but it was my sister and she's a lady! gosh! its either 2 possibilities; the guy is totally rude OR he's SUPERGAY! but then again gay people also have respects to ladies i mean c'mon! if it was in Malaysia i swear to god i would knock your groin hard!. let alone the story.

and this time is when i when to the airport to fly back home. the beg-dropping-lady is i would say 2 or 3 months pregnant and she was so cranky and perhaps crooked. its hard to tell this story but the conclusion is what i said in my mind is 

" Awal you need to stay calm and relax. you're going to be a father sooner or later"

(while rubbing my chest)

THE END

now this is the matter that i want to share with you people of what i think. i've been sitting alone listening to music as always.

watching people strolling around, sitting and doing their stuff i ponder, what is these people doing throughout their life just to finish off the day. some i can see from their physical is doing business in meeting people and also just look at the laptop screen with only god knew what is he/she is doing.

but as of for me now i'am at the state of thinking what i MUST do. my love live if waaayyyy of the grid. why? well i've been liking, liked and likes. but the thing is the relation is not in order either the person is a relation or in scandalous life. as of for that is was tagged as a player more like a Casanova. no i am not. i bet to differ because these hypothesis given by my friend isn't correct at all..

yes i am a sweet and soft talker. but it doesn't mean i use that specialty to 'trap' those people. i'm not that mean. but the real thing is i am liking a person but this person is in a relation. gosh it hurts when i have to see  status updates saying i miss you and how i love you. it hurts man! and what are we now? for me i'm a guy that waits for dreams to come true so that the person will be mine while hurting myself to the fullest. that person? hmmm.. treatment given is so sweet and made me fall in love even deeper. i think this is my biggest crush ever. i am sure of it. but then again i was told to not put hope on what i want because its only will hurt myself. i said that i'm okay but obviously lying to said those okay thing suffice to make me heart throbbed.

i had respond to the friend request but i ought to feel that this post will be read. but if it will be read then i'll be ready for what question that will be asked.

Praying to God i will not say something stupid.