either love or oath??

we often see trends of on and off relations... even my brother do that... what is the best being in relation and then you end-up break-up.... and the funny thing is.. the relation is only for less than 1 month.. i was like... are you guys serious..

I myself was not a good 'husband' either.. its just my luck to have a 'wife' which her face like a wall and her heart like a barbarian.. =)..

let me tell my experience... my longest relation is only can be hold only for 2 years... and we broke up because we don't have the sparks anymore.. when i try to put sparks... my ex know and get the hints but she end-up being slightly BLURR.. and i was like... did she notice what i want... pfftt =.="..

on every of my relation i'm in different 'mode'

i used to be:

mat bunga

mat jiwang

mat blues

mat mampuih p kat hg

currently

mat hati kering tanpa perasaan yg awek dy 2 dah meraung mcm org hilang laki hilang harta... HAHA...

sbb mcm suka j jd mcm 2... hahaha

and i know that she don't like it... but i have my reasons... so that she will never:

thinking something that is delirious

too obsessed with her own thought

being to shallow

crying with purple tears... huhuhu...

ataupun aq saje nk dy marah aq...(nakalkan hihi)

well leave that aside... i'm not going to tell you guys my lovestory... hahah.. but what i wanna stress here is that people nowadays were in relations... yess we obviously know that... but is it base on oath(sumpahjanjisehidupsematiterjunbangunankapallahbagaisayanakkahwindenganawaknakadewanakdenganawakdansebagainya) or are they or WE really love that person dearly...

i often asked myself did i love her based on oath or love.. hmmm... if about oath.... i think i've made one... but that is not why i'm 'engaged' to her... haha.... hmmm.... it's me whom know the answer... (hilang garang r beb)

so how about you guys???

=.="

this entry should first so before i forget and the thought i wanted to shared flew away let me put this puzzle back..

to know and 'digest something or even anything we need knowledge about some particular things... for example if you wanna bath you must know how to open the tap.. if you don't know how to do so... u'll not be able to take your bath..

in this case.. read this first :

org yg kite suke x tentu akan syg kite mcmane kite syg die, tp org yg syg kite selalu ade untuk kite walaupon kite lg focus kat org yg kite suke..;p so, tentukan mane satu org yg syg kite and mane satu yg kite terkejar2...

believe me,u can't have both... AND BELIEVE ME!!! HILANG ORG YG SYG KITE JAUH LAGI SAKIT DR HILANG ORG YANG KITE SUKE!!!

what did you guys understand about this???...

fro me.. what i know from the inner sight is... to love someone, get to know the person that likes and loves you.. both are different and should have a contradictions on it LIKES and LOVES..

LIKES

for me 'likes' is an adjective word for love in which means love is something that you can feel.. unlike likes... you can say you like FRANK LAMPARD for instance.. it doesn't mean that you loved him as if in the context where you need a commitment and care... and please be rationally fits when it comes how to differentiates love as it should be and it must be... you get what i mean??... well if you don't you can read it again.. and likes is not a 'root word' of love... it's a 'root word' for a phase of liking something..

LOVES

loves.. hmm... well actually love is a very wide and broad word with different kind of interpretations of the word... but most mentality in the world would say that love is about marriage, sex, commitments, money and all that.. but did you realized that from all that it is actually not what is love would meant to be... it most probably can be classify as new phase and beginning in life... as for me.. love is something sacred and could not be understand in just 1 perspective.. there's a way to determine love as your own... but it does take a lot of time...

so as a conclusion... hence, maybe some of you guys son't really see where is this post actually drives you in.. what i mean is... to love and like somebody you need to know the person that loves and likes you... look on their signals... like their gestures, treatments, talks, and eye-contacts.. there are hint went somebody likes or loves you.... try on...

p/s:

the person that loves you doesn't mean he likes you

the person that likes you doesn't mean he loves you

the person that you like doesn't mean you love him

the person that you love doesn't mean you like him

try to think... its a bit tricky though... because these stuffs did affect our lives wherever and whenever..

let try this out..

*deep sigh*

i've been a jerk lately.. like everyone around me knows about it.. but no i don't mean it but seriously i mean it.. haha..

well.. to get over it i have a major break-down recently were i was crushed into pieces like an ice-cube.. pfftt.. and that put shu, farris, izwan, and few people that i don't know cz i do 'laughing'-out-loud.. then i moved to .. ok lets not tell the whole story will ya??.. thank you guys for being my hugging-bear-to-cry.

what i want to say here is being a jerk is cool.. i mean really cool.. but in most time being a jerk won't work-out.. so if you want to be a jerk and still would want it to work.. try to think something bizarre that a normal and typical jerk don't do.. and that is an advice..

and rite now i am putting back my brunt using self-adhesive that this time will make me a cold-hearted and untouchable with peoples action..

what the heck.. ok.. i get you.. so if you want to back-off for something that you say you can't tell me perhaps maybe because of your taboo and stuff well be my guest.. i don't mind anymore.. although im still in recovery mode but what the heck.. i know i can faced it and stand proudly on my own achievement and ability and not by your pitifulness on me.. back on the past yes you might pity me mercifully but now i assure you that now the dog-gone-days are over.. this time around you are the one who will craving for me.. my will is my power..

what i will do is what you will felt impaired with:

- jaws dropping down

- eyes-popping-out

- head turning

- body shaking

with full of JEALOUSY!!

i marked my word this time.. and this post is most likely related to you.. the person that...... i don't want to spoil the surprise here.. if i did tell you guys about it... it will blow all the things that i have been keeping out... and seriously...

THIS ISN'T GAY!.. (fuck la sapa yg suka dok cop aq ni GAY!!)

try to put me down this time you will get it hard.. i've been living in a world of pain and the pain that lure me is something which is very tough and indestructible (cewahh~~).. hmmm...

dah letih la dgn benda ni sume..

i keep my word... you'll looked up on me... high above the sky.. although i need to struggle to be 'there' but seriously it's you whom put me in this kinda avenging state..

haha... i'm a person that smiles and jokes around a lot.. but if messed around just slightly mistakes of tinee-tiny words.. you will get burn by my words...

i hope everyone read this i hope YOU read this...