we must separate..

i've been thinking for a while.. and i thinking i have come into conclusion.. although your relationship is not long.. but really3 love you.. trust me... my love towards you will never fade.. because you have give me lots of experience.. sometimes i be mad at you but sometime i cherish you.. you make me cry.. you make me laugh..

but my decision is final.. and divorce is eminent.. i could not say a thing anymore about this.. and nothing could ever restrain me from doing this..

i don't want to do it actually.. but it will perish me inside if i keep holding it back.. i'm so sorry but i have to do this... we have gone through a lot.. people say we are nice.. but deep inside who knew... only we knew.. we fought and we argue.. we play and we slay.. but never can ever put my feeling away.. i will remember this always.. for the sake of eveything.. for the sake of you.. me.. and and our live...
















GOODBYE FINAL DRAMA.....

to Fara Aisyah... hihihi.... sorry... false statement.... HAHAHAHAHA....

i miss you very much...

it have been almost til the end..

and the memory of you is still strong in my memory.. the time we spend together.. the time when you took care of me.. i really miss you... although it seems i wanna ignore you.. but i couldn't..

is it a why??.. no... its a yes.. a yes when i have to really know that you almost gone from my life.. i know i shouldn't do this.. looking at your face every time do really plunged a massive hole of destruction.. being in the same surrounding with you has had enough made me feel warm although that was only in my own dream...

i want us to be together again.. but it seems that... i can only do that with an inception oh my own mind..

i miss you along..

i miss you arif bahari..

i miss you brother..

lately i can't live my days.. seeing you... and your presence had done enough damage to our memory... do you still remember??..

i still remember when i used to cry by your shoulder and you were there pampering me.. ease me with your head-rubbing..

i miss you along..

i miss you arif bahari..

i miss you brother..

i wish i could talk..

but think i can't..

where have you been??

first of all the question was actually for me.. why? in this few weeks i've been away from writing anything because i'm afraid that i might post something that i shouldn't say and tell here..

complications in my life currently was like a massacre..

i don't know.. okay.. no!.. it's a bullshit if i said that i don't know.. i know..

i'm broken hearted.. i'm depressed.. i'm in tense.. i'm in full of anger..

still it was hidden under..

why is it hard to trust a person that we used to trust.. and am i too naive in letting people in.. its very frustrating.. come and go just like that.. happens in one night.. do you ever felt very.. i don't know how to portray such bid hates and disappointment in my heart right now..

let put one situation..

you met with some one, and you start to like him/her.. yadiyadiyada.. back and forth.. back and forth.. he/she ask you to meet.. you guys meet and then start to express feelings.. but in the end you guys were left on a dungeon to rot.. its like you have been left astray on the street..

well what ever.. or maybe the example was way out of the road.. but still.. then when you trying to adapt yourself to something.. something did happen for me and i've been restrained on such matters.. well i don't even liked it..

nonetheless for the posers, stop pushing your lucks.. why.. because it gonna get worst.. i try to be nice to people and grow to be a new leaf with good manners and no verbal abused.. i'm surely in confidence that i has lessen my cursing and what not.. but still.. people do it.. 

i'm sick of you guys who defying me..

one person says to me that be like a fish. why?? to it surrounding in ocean it is salty but still the fish was not salty cuz of surrounding.. means that.. trying to ignore the surrounding was a bliss and make you stronger..

but i'm stilll............