sometimes..

recently world are not on my side..

the weather is not that bright anymore

the surrounding is not that lively anymore

the food i ate are not that delicious anymore

the drink i drank are not that nice anymore

the girl i used to go out with is not there anymore

the stuff i do are not that perfect anymore

even my cat hates me... she ditch me for another cat... what's with intimating with another mate!!??.... why can't you be normal kitty??.. (am i normal??... hmmmm i wonderr??..)

so sad... i felt very sad... i lost my e minor guitar string due to hard plucking.. okay2... it's my fault.. my lappy is hanging.... always hanged!!... felt like i wanna hang it!!..

friend are not that friendly because they always make me feel happy... and it is wrong... like Gwendolen said in importance of being earnest..

"don't talk to me about the weather, when you talk about the weather i feel that something is wrong"

and now i don't like what am i doing... lecturer is giving us a tonne of assignment.. no... actually they had gave it like a year ago.. okay3.. that is exaggeration.. i mean seriously.. i can't blame it on drama... hmmm..... or is it just me??... i don't know how to arrange myself and it is not even my fault because my lappy and movie influence me to watch them while eating Thai food.. 

i feel like its the end.. everyone was happy with their life even farris has his so-called 'girlfriend'.. fara aisyah with her heart-breaking problem and she was happy.. i don't know what is with her actually..

athir is living happily ever after with ridz and haree haikal.. izni are getting her family to stop by for drama... well my family too..

mellea is getting very comfortable with her 'ministry' sort of thing.. and its bringing me down.. sara is happily married with zach!!.. WHAT ABOUT ME!!!... okay.. no more false statement.

why is everything is not buying me... hmmm... what am i gonna do...

but i'm satisfied with something that is something is perishing self..

we must separate..

i've been thinking for a while.. and i thinking i have come into conclusion.. although your relationship is not long.. but really3 love you.. trust me... my love towards you will never fade.. because you have give me lots of experience.. sometimes i be mad at you but sometime i cherish you.. you make me cry.. you make me laugh..

but my decision is final.. and divorce is eminent.. i could not say a thing anymore about this.. and nothing could ever restrain me from doing this..

i don't want to do it actually.. but it will perish me inside if i keep holding it back.. i'm so sorry but i have to do this... we have gone through a lot.. people say we are nice.. but deep inside who knew... only we knew.. we fought and we argue.. we play and we slay.. but never can ever put my feeling away.. i will remember this always.. for the sake of eveything.. for the sake of you.. me.. and and our live...
















GOODBYE FINAL DRAMA.....

to Fara Aisyah... hihihi.... sorry... false statement.... HAHAHAHAHA....

i miss you very much...

it have been almost til the end..

and the memory of you is still strong in my memory.. the time we spend together.. the time when you took care of me.. i really miss you... although it seems i wanna ignore you.. but i couldn't..

is it a why??.. no... its a yes.. a yes when i have to really know that you almost gone from my life.. i know i shouldn't do this.. looking at your face every time do really plunged a massive hole of destruction.. being in the same surrounding with you has had enough made me feel warm although that was only in my own dream...

i want us to be together again.. but it seems that... i can only do that with an inception oh my own mind..

i miss you along..

i miss you arif bahari..

i miss you brother..

lately i can't live my days.. seeing you... and your presence had done enough damage to our memory... do you still remember??..

i still remember when i used to cry by your shoulder and you were there pampering me.. ease me with your head-rubbing..

i miss you along..

i miss you arif bahari..

i miss you brother..

i wish i could talk..

but think i can't..