to hell you bloody cockroach!!

oh my god!!... i'm infuriated by the roach... kurang asam nak mampos.. ade ke patot dia literally kejar aku... dah la boleh terbang...

macam ni... i was chatting with my friend on FB, and i saw the roach.. at first i let it be there for i was hoping that it will remain NO harm for me.. alas!!.. demn cockroach!!.. it ran as fast as it can towards me and when it almost reach me... IT FLEW!!!.... ouuu you S.O.B!!.. how dare you... and the rest let it be a mystery... so i hate roaches.. so what??.. pfftt -.-' and it happen just now..

and today as i work i felt really happy.. because the past 4 days i've been assigned at ticketing so... a very unpleasant scenery, customer, attitude etc, etc.. the thing that i want to write about here is WHY DO YOU CRAZY LOVE HAWK HAD TO FLIRT IN FRONT OF ME!!.. 

dah2 la korang bermanja-manja di bangku rehat pusat membeli belah... depan kaunter tiket pon korang nak bermanja ke... tolong laa... kesian la kat aku yang yang akan kerja 7 8 jam bekerja lagi... tapi aku rasa bangga sebab aku dapat..

"Best Customer Relation's Officer Service Award"

(sukaitaw..tapilepasnidahtakbolehnakbuatsambilleawasebabkenapakaibadge..demn!)

ehh ni haa.. aku nak tanya.. haha.. bukan nak tanya.. padahal aku pon selalu jugak buat.. but this one is really ridiculous.. cz you know why.. every each of guy look at that women when she's changing her coaches (as this is happen when i'm on my way back to Penang) and the thing that lingers in my head is that... why must guys "checked" out on that girl.. yes i must say that the girl if voluptuously hot and watering.. duhh... dosa kot.. haha.. but i do it as much as the other guys did.. hahaha... like do i care...

and the last thing that i want to rebate is that (wah2fefeelingdebatorpulekk) i want to ask you ladies out there.. because i got this information unveiled from a female senior back in the WSC tournament.. you see, we are supposed to go to Menara SaaS to arrange the tables for the some test.. yada3... i woke up late.. and apparently i was not alone... there are 2 seniors that are not late actually but they had work to do at our commanding room.. so we arrived at seroja's bus stop and we actually need to climb uphill to arrive to that tower.. uitmsalamstudent mesti tahu kan betapa tinggi bukit tu.. yes... aku belajar istilah ni...

UiTM = Universiti ini Tangga Manyak

so sue me that i learn this new term there... like i'm so sorry if i offended the UiTM parties.. i don't mean to put a joke on it.. but people do call US this... i stressed... US!!.. HAHA... so back to the story...

we were climbing uphill and i was like... 

so when i ask my senior to speed up a little bit.. she respond like this...

"ehh tanak la jalan laju2 nanti ketiak basah"

(don't walk too fast i don't want my armpit to get wet)

so i was like.. aaaaaa... okay... no wonder women, i stress... WOMEN.. walk slow and use the reason of

"we Malay ladies walk slow because we are decent"

decent??.. bwahahahahah..... OK... it's a bit rude of me.. yes.. some ladies do as what they describe... but for others... its like??... 

"are you trying to be Miss Malaysia??.. pfft.. forget it love. you ain't winning"

and last but not least.. my epic ending of this post is.... be like this cat... she's so adorable and a helping-hand..

(awww... you're so sweet.. miss nikita... oh you wabble swabble)

eh2??... bila kau jadi artis??

now i feel really unequivocal whether i'm going to write my post in malay or in english.... so i make a dceision to write it in malay and also in english from time to time i'll change the language...

so sekarang ni sebenarnya aku ada banyak benda yang aku nak cerita dekat korang semua benda lawak.. benda sedih.. benda penting.. macam macam yang aku nak cakap sebenarnya... okay... aku bagi tahu sikit pasal aku yee...

aku sekarang ni tengah demam sebab memikirkan apa yang sedang aku hadapi.. sebab aku tak dapat terima apa yang dia mahukan sebab benda tu bukan susah... all you need is to eliminate those thing... and i also don't know what... kenapa... sebab kau aku demam.. ataupun aku yang bodoh sebab demam tentang perkara yang mustahil kau akan lakukan...

dan aku akan compose nukilan ini sebagai lagu untuk kau...

since the moment I met you,

I feel the bloom that I am sure it's you,

and I keep you as I want you,

but it didn't get far,

I start to avoid you,

but i know I can't do,

I choose to let go of you.

you're the core of my addiction,

my barrier falls when I feel you near,

I shiver when you kiss me,

I tremble when you hug me,

I don't know but I believe,

that you and me are meant to be.

I know I can't let you go,

and I took my chances in loving you,

you are still you even I wish you are not you,

I fear we might not be together,

and that is why I fear.

so please come here with me,

cz I need you to trust me,

cz it's nothing you think it could be,

open your heart only for me,

and don't you let go of me.

(aku tulis ni time kerja tadi sebab terlalu boring)

so my writing is read by my other colleague.. what the heck... so i let them read it....

vinnoth

i like the first to stanza.. the rest is okay.. but the most interesting is that your writing plays with my heart..

thilaga

yes.. your writing does plays with my heart too.. but i want to ask... is this a true story or a made up??

awalkhamis

thanks vinnot.. actually tilaga this is a real story.. it does happens..

thilaga

kenapa dengan you orang ni??.. so you kenapa dengan dia...

and so of the answer is i just sit beside her and smile but crushed inside..

honey.. do not torture me much..

sayang why do you often do this to me.. i feel really bound to you.. not receiving your text is the most hardest thing when you already express your love towards me.. yes you do text me but that was not suffice.. because to be around your arms all the time is the most tempting things i would ever wanted..

sooo as of for that... i just want to tell you guys whom are reading this... this post are actually only trying to catch your attention.. and GOTCHA!!!...

haha... i know that the new update will only show the bold part of the text.. so to catch your attention i just merely trying to please you guys assuming i'm writing about something that is true..

so something true.. what is actually true or truth.. well the core part of it i can assure is that true or truth can be proved and proven to be something that is real and fact-full.. 

have been totally true to the people around you??.. for something that will jeopardize your life for sure that ain't going to be told because that would be a suicide..

well my friend had trouble with.. okay let say the person is A.. so A is bound to B which is A's best friend.. they have a groupies and had a gang.. long story short.. A falls for B and A does not like the feeling A's keeping in side.. so A seek for my guidance.. 

again long story short.. if you feel bound to someone and you know that the things will not going anywhere.. start move on honey.. you might say it is hard.. (yada3.. i don't want to know about your mid-life crisis...) try to overcome it by refusing.. because only by refusing you will get over that person and move on and by that the person will realized that you had no more interest in him/her.. 

List of things that you can do to overcome the situation of being bound..

1. stop texting the person

2. delete his/her text.

3. get rid of the feeling 'aww... you sent me a gudnite text'

4. if there is no more hope or it's only a "foreplay" stop doing it cz you know the other side only

    wanted to spare his/her time..

5. not to put too much hope.. cz when your hoping.. you'll break..

6. not to be psychopath if the person is a psychopath..

7. if you are keen to be a psychopath, try to learn on accept that its over.. people are many in this

    world..

8. remember that being a psycho IS NOT GIVING YOU ANY BETTER..

9. teach him/her a lesson that in brightest day, and in blackest night.. your will is your desire..

10. find yourself a tranquillity state of mind..

so to a friend.. i'm only a guy that willing you to help get through your problems.. and if anyone of you had a crisis that is similar to this or a contrary of it... try to adapt and thing..

we humans' are not that primitive with our thinking.. we are not mature sometimes but it doesn't mean that we are still primitive.. to be mature and not primitive is to let low the enthusiasms so that you can think..

this post went over a month of completion..

hmmm.. well.. it seems that i am moving on with new life and new people.. and i know this is the time.. time to move on.. AGAIN.. yes.. people do move on a lot of time due to occasions..

i know i'm ready to leave the things i'm ready.. to act mature is to know things maturely.. and i know that mature is not enough with only experience.. but also observation and on others' life.. plan ahead what am i going to do..  to leave people back is hard but people whom taking advantage of your kindness you need too stay away from them and be more agile..

love no more.. because it will came when He permits you to have.. so says Christina Perri

'Cause all that's waiting is regret 
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore? 
You lost the love I loved the most 

3 verse of words that's all needed..

i'm taking this highway rolled out the trenched of agony of my life.. pathetic coloured by humorous narcissism of mine i would way.. but in a sarcastic way.. i'm a sloppy guy in shades of perfection..

to be really in to this i know i had despite you and removed you to be my paramore for me to be jubilant.. cz i'm no smart guy nor clumsily perfect.. but i know i do related to anyone of you through six-degree of personality compability..

in my confidence.. this will be a half way through.. but to live like what i really want is to go way in ages.. but ages is nothing if i believe and i do.. so my to do list is:

1. to remove unwanted people

2. being wanted in the unwanted
3. pursue my real dreams that people don't know
4. stopping the things i like to do
5. do destruction to one's lived
6. doing number 3
7. starts ignoring the ignorant people although people call you ignorant
8. searching for lights and companion that is truly within you and to your spaces
9. evaluating people long enough before you trust them (which i am.. just need to strengthen 'em)
10. BE THE 1 YOU REALLY WANT TO BE IN A CORRECT WAY.. (it's not a sin to have THAT kind of hobby)




so if you are thinking of moving on.. think what you really want and ignore things people would say because you know what you want.. and the most important things is to not look back at your paramore and stuck back with 'em..

intoxicated by wasabi

hellooooo....

alolololo... comeyyy nye... alololololo..... haha... sebenarnya pujian mengembangkan tu adalah untuk aku sebenarnya.... haha.. what ever... so actually... dengan masa yang agak terluang yang aku ada ini... aku pon menjelajah lah blog-blog follower aku yang diorang mengaku setia dengan blog aku(boleh percaya ke korang ni?)

wahh!!... i'm shocked to see that every single person of them has a really great headers and structure(perasaan cemburu mula bergolak) cantik laaaa..... pandainye korang buat benda niii..... (hipokrit) dan ada juga blog dan follower yang tidak aku kenali... macam ada satu blog ni.. aku ingatkan blog member aku time asasi dulu.. sekali tengok jantina dia tulen dan kesahihanya aku tak pasti.. sebab what i see is what i believe.. malas nak buat research korek sana sini.. tanya itu ini.. so biarkan ia menjadi begitu sebab by time in the future people themselves will reveal it to ask without us asking it..

kenapa aku bold perkataan tu... sebab... lately aku melihat ramai orang bagi tahu masalah dan situasi diri dia.. even aku sendiri.. tapi aku punya cara dengan menyelindungkan maksudnya.. so orang akan tertanya... tapi the general idea is also implement in the status i updated.. eventhough my blog and statuses didn't has their enough follower and likers.. but i'm still grateful...

so back to the thing i want to say.. actually today i don't have any specific idea.. because i just woke up and still with eye mucus.. hahahahah... i just want to say.. maybe that this is the way it is.. but most of the posting and idea nowadays are really interesting in spite the thing that literally back fired me...

haha.. i want to ask you guys.. if you guys were stranded with to people in a time.. what would you do..

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you like A and you love B.. but B doesn't want to commit to you.. A is waiting for you but you know that your heart is still with B and it's maybe impossible for both of you to be together but so HARD for you to let go and plus you know that A is always be there for you but not as what you fell towards A.. so literally you fall for both but more to B..

possible answer people will say:

People 1

awal.. i think the best think is to moved on with A or search for anyone else..

Me

"your heart is still with B and it's maybe impossible for both of you to be together but so HARD for you to let go"

People 23

people are judging through inner person but we don't know what A or B might do next..

Me

that point maybe true but let alone faulty season.. from that you can judge that person..

so people.. try on thinking that best solution you can give but not some cliché same old reason that people will think and the you might think the best result... i know you guys are smart and genius... 

please do not worsen the situation

i kinda notice that lately no i mean all the time.. my post is kinda long... and also it made me a bit sick just to look at it.. yadi2 yada2.. blablabla...

actually i got this idea from a friend in endearment so i wrote this in English cz eventually i have an overseas audience.. welll hellow... hellow yaw.... *sounds perky and kinky...

its about this.. you know that sometimes we do had had a very miserable and hopeless lifetime.. no i mean time of life.. what the heck.. and so we start to eat ice-cream, getting drunk at some alley, drop by at the zoo hoping to be eaten by a lion.. well it doesn't matter whether it will happen or not...

how about sit back and relax.. watch the smurfs instead...

Guy 1

easy for you to say... i have 5 kids and 2 dogs to raised..

Lady 33

yeayy... i get dumped when i was 12..

Kid 41

i want my doll back...

so we had a difficult time to handle.. but we can't let that matter to ruin our lives... taking matter too seriously is like you already being in a coffin ready to be buried in the graveyard... NO!!... you don't want that... and not to forget.. we have friends and family.. for sure we'll end up seeing them for a shoulder to cry on or even a face to slapped.. (frankly, i don't know the relation of that slapping thing and the main point) so what the heck...

somtimes people do want to get involved with the matter we were into well i say

"DON'T LET THEM INTO IT.. THEY WILL ONLY MAKE YOUR HEAD FILLED WITH DECISIONS AND DILEMMAS"

well that ain't good... if also you do have problems that will metaphorically kills you like a time bomb.. cz everybody too has a problem..

DO NOT DRAG PEOPLE INTO IT AND TRY TO SOLVED IT.. YOU MESS YOU CLEAN IT

end of speech

*is this make sense... lets hope sooo

mak aku suka beletiaq..

wahai semua manusia dan lumrahnya.. ya.. sejak kebelakangan ni mak aku ni suka sangat beleter.. aku tak tahu la apa yang dia dapat.. biarlah dia.. dia bukak je mulut aku sumbat muka dalam bantal.. dengar lagi, aku sumbat dalam tilam pulak.. huhu..

aku sebenarnya ada tiga benda aku nak cerita.. semuanya menyakitkan hati.. tajuknya ialah

"adeq, abang ni kacak tak?"

"awal bila permasalahan mata aku ni nak selesai"

"mereka tipu kau!!.. jangan percaya!"

yang pertama sangatlah jahat budak tu... kisah ni terjadi di tempat kerja dimana member aku bernama Aben dicelakakan oleh seorang budak perempuan cute berbaju merah jambu.. yang kebetulan ada di candy bar.. Aben ni diberi nama timangan bergelar "Abang Kacak"

Kak Ina

Oii Kacak!!...

Aben

apa kak ina ni... cakap kuat-kuat pulakk....... BlaBlaBlaBla....

adeq yang berbaju merah jambu itu 'teruja' dengan kekacakan Aben... Kak Ina terpandang akan pandangan adeq comel itu lalu bertanya........

Kak Ina

adeq.. abang ni hensome dak??

Adeq itu terkejut lalu memerhatikan lagi muka Aben.apabila pandangan mereka bertembung adeq tu pun mengambil 3 langkah jauh dari Aben laluuuu.......

aben berlalu pergi... ye... sakit hati bila kita di disapprove macam tu... tawu la budak ade yang tak tahu menipu... jangan la tanya budak.. sebab jawapan dia memang menyakitkan hati... yang membuatkan cerita ni lawak is that budak tu melangkah jauh sedikit dari Aben... mungkin takut kena hentak kepala dekat kaunter dengan Aben kot... hahaha... btw ni lah Aben

korang lah judge

cerita kedua ni perihal aku... see.. lately aku punya rambu ni dah meliar keluar dari pusat perhilitan (sape yang pernah tengok tawu la kan).. soo... this one day aku dok candy bar... and yes... aku akan sakit hati bila aku dok situ... why??? apron and cap... Demn!!.... bukan apa... apron tu senag je la... ni yang nak pakai cap ni yang aku tension ni... i actually took 10-15 minutes to finally took charge on setting my hair IN the cap... and until this on day... rakan sekerja aku cakap dekat aku...

Rakan Sekerja

Awal... aku nak cakap benda ni... tapi jangan ambil hati taw... hang tu dah la kuat menyentap (lately aku kuat menyentap)

AwalKhamis

cakaplah... aku tak kisah...

Rakan Sekerja

ummm.... aku tengok kan... kehidupan rambut hang ni complicated laa.. serabut... bila hang nak meng'gojes'kan dia balik...

AwalKhamis

aku ponnnnnnnnnn T.T ada lighter tak aku nak bakaq rambut aku ni T.T

yes... and to be frank... aku terbakar rambut aku sedikit and it doesn't change anything.. but the burnt smell stays sampai one of my co worker tegur and i had to tell the truth takut nanti dia pi call BOMBA plak.. and eventually he laughed.... Cheese!!... kenapalah aku gatai main lighter...

and this is the final story.. aku dengan kazen aku...

well lately keinginan aku untuk beli fixie untuk kegunaan di kampus... lebih jimat dan menguruskan aku memang dah cukup fit pon actually... yada3.. but that is not the truth... saje nak announce.. benda betol is that aku jenjalan dengan  kazen aku dan aku ternampak promosi iphone4 dekat maxis.. dan tanpa berfikir panjang aku terus masuk premis..

AwalKhamis

umm.. miss.. terang dekat i pasal plan ni

Promoter

owh yang ini... macam ni blablabla dua ratus.. blabla.. agreement blablabla (lantak kaulah.. aku nak fon ni)

AwalKhamis

kak.. aku rasa macam nak ambik la fon ni... aku nak sangat... plis plis plis plis...

Kak

aku tak kisah.. duit hang... hang beli la.. tapi yang penting,... aku belajaq sepanjang aku hidup ni ialah

"don't trust the promotion.. who knew you might sell goreng pisang to pay the rest"

so niat aku dipatahkan macam tu je... tapi betol jugakk.. promosi ni macam macam... bermulut manis sehingga aku berasa melayang di awangan... in the end.. aku ber mulut pahit sehingga menyagat lidah di jalanan...