the day was full of excitement..
after we had done sitting for our TMS 071 earlier in the morning.. we went to PKNS to eat and hangout just a bit.. it was cool.. but i cant barely eat at all... i got nausea when i eat.. at has been 3 days..
then we sit at taman tasik round a couple of hours... i sit and sit and sit.. i was wif them... and i do think sumthing about me myself... am i in a good condition??... can i get over the things... i meant all of it..
there's a person sat beside me all the time near the bank of the lake... but i kept silent and talk when necessary.. and i noe tht i was thinking in a good way,...
then i did ask myself am i cool already... am i stable.. well im in a phase were i am still adapting myself for it.. but deeply inside i will be so.. even if there is no reinforcement or a helping hands... im being strong..as i wish i do..
most of all i already had a conversation that i was waiting for.. it was a conversation like before.. the one that im missing of... but instead in the conversation gain lots of different sound and way of it.. it seems i dun mind.. but to sumthing that is i want n like the most, i do care and i do want it back.. but seems like it was not like before... i do feel sad for that and always be if i dun get it like before.. but the choice is in the hand of that person.. i do miss it.. i wanna say it hear.. but if i do.. people will realize.. i just want it all the time.. when there is a small talk wif me.. hmmmmmm.... i deeply sigh when i worte this... trying to get rid of it.. but seems that this is the only thing that will stay.. and i am sure about it..
thats all goodnight... im being the way i am before... need to change and stop.. orr........................
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